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Name: Korri
Location: Texas, United States
Birthday: 2/23/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Friends, music, phone, computer, photography, video games (Guild Wars), Mountain Dew, dogs, movies, concerts, Texas...
Expertise: Lips Like Morphine - Kill Hannah
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  xxkorrixx
Yahoo:  xkorrix@yahoo.com
Member Since:
12/29/2003
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| Dude, seriously...
FIRST OFF: I have no recollection of typing that last entry. Which only leads me to one conclusion.... I was very drunk. [no surprise there] I have been blacking out and shit when I drink. That never used to happen... Laaammmeee..
SECOND: So, Jacob and I got Kratos! Yay! Now we are getting evicted because of him. Boo! So now we have to find a new place to live, get rid of our puppy, and Jacob and I got into a big fight last night because I got jealous because he wants to date other people........ Frankly it hurts me too much to know about it, and I don't know if he understands that. So now like usual I'm very torn and confused. Am I wasting my time?
-sigh-
Everything was going so well..
I hate this time of year.
With Affection <3
Korri Danni Annie Kopsi
P.S. Where the fuck did October and November go?! Seriously. I feel like I lost 2 months of my life.
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| So I have not updated my Xanga for like a year now. But rest assured dear Xanga, you still are my favorite. And really do miss this place like crazy. I think I'm going to TRY so start updating again. That would be most badass! BOO YAH! Anyways, so Jacob and I are getting a puppy in...... two days! !!!! It's going to be fantastic.
New Chapter:
KRATOS!
heehhehe
I'm so excited!
With Affection<3
-Korri Danni Annie Kopsi-
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| I don't update anymore. Granted, I don't have much to say anymore. Cause if I have anything to say to anybody I usually just call them or tell them in person. Everything besides that is pretty much kept to myself, which could be the cause of why I keep breaking down lately.
Everything is slowly coming together but still feels hopeless. I'm so grateful and happy for what I have but my mind keeps telling me that somehow this track that I'm on is too good to be true and I'm gonna lose it all or fuck it up like I seem to everything else. That I'm gonna lose everyone I have like I always seem to.
I keep doubting myself. Second guessing my decisions. I hate feeling hopeless. How can I tell everyone around me that everything is going to work out for them and be ok when I can't even believe that myself.
I love my family.
I love the few friends I have left.
I love my boyfriend. Who I'm so happy with and am so glad it's finally working out.
I got a car, I have a job. Things are slowly working out as I always told myself they would. Then I have to start thinking about the future, school, career, family... but then what? It all seems so boring to me. So plain. It all seems so predictable. I don't like trying to plan my future for fear that things will change and I'll let myself down. Maybe that's why I always expect the worse. I hope for the best, but part of me always seems to know that what I have could fall apart at any second, and if that did happen I'd just be sitting there with no one and nothing telling myself that I expected this and that I deserve every bit of it. I feel like I'm just living for the small surprises and happy moments I get, but in between those times there is so much stress and worry that I sometimes can't tell if they're all worth it. Maybe things would come together when I figured out exactly what I wanted out of life. Maybe if I knew exactly what I wanted for my life. I know that I care and cherish who and what I have and wouldn't want to lose any it for the world. Then why do I still feel this way sometimes? Why do the smallest things set me off? Sometimes I feel like everyone around me is just moving on and I'm still stuck in the past.
I don't think I can handle losing anyone else. I don't know if I can handle another big change.
I need a hug.
I need someone to hold me and tell me everything will be ok and we'll get through it whether I believe it or not. It's always nice to hear.
I hope I find whatever it is I need to lift my spirits.
With Affection<3
Korri Danni Annie Kopsi
<3
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| I'm happy.
I'm stressed, but happy.
Stressed because there is a lot of stuff that I have to worry about. Gotta save money and work on moving out and blah blah blah.
There is so much to think about lately it's ridiculous.
I do need to get a better job though.
Starbucks just ain't gonna cut it. As much as I love making mochas, lattes, machiatos, teas and frappacinos, I need something with a set schedule and better pay. Well, Meg is here so I gotta go.
With Affection<3
Korri Danni Annie Kopsi
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| So today I tried shrimp, shark, and sushi.
I liked all of them.
YAY!
I wanna listen to The Faint.
I think I will.
With Affection<3
Korri Danni Annie Kopsi
<3
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